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LONG TIME NO SEE!

dah berhabuk bagai...when was it last time i post an entry? 2015? ey very long time huh..btw hello 2018...lagi beberapa bulan then I am officially 28y old.


why? i just don't feel like documenting my life story these few years, been having to much...i hold back most of the times, keeping things to myself.

Even now I am still in daze...the fact that I survived series of tragic melacholic events, still battling with it even now...sakit nya tuh tak terkata :(

kadang macam pelik, macam tak percaya...then i asked Allah how worst it can be? why me? those thing I saw in tv..novel..why it happened to me? why?

am I really that bad that I deserved that kind of punishment? but above all ad hikmah atas semua yang aku lalui.

i learned few things for the past years you know...and it is a good reminder for me:

1) friends --
- they come /they go
-very few are honest and stay true until the end
-most of them backstab you
-very few support you all the way
- very few stay with you in tough time

2)family
-There is among them that lead you to suicide/destruction
-not all the time they can accept you
-you are not important if you have nothing

3)Be kind and be honest/ stay true to yourself even if it hurt you along the way
-when I was a kid, many times people around said that I am faking my sicknes/ that I am lying when the fact that I am really having a hard times, so I promised that when I saw someone having a hard time/sick....even they are faking it, always attend to their need so you'll end up with no regrets.

4)There is no paradox between love and loneliness...both are the same
-so cheer up if you are single, it is even more lonely and complicated when you are in love.

5) career
-whether you got qualification or experience...none of them are important, everything comes to you by luck..believe me :( , ada rezeki..ada laa..tapi still kena usaha, mana ada yang datang bergolek!

6) Those who looks pure are most likely to be wicked evil than those who looks like a convict. tapi ada juga yang muka jahat mmg jahat...just don't jugde a book by its cover.

7)Delinquents are everywhere...very hard to find those with good hearts nowadays

8)Being insulted is not easy i swear...i cannot play it cool but trying hard to keep a poker face is the toughest one ever. orang sekeliling hina kau macam kau ni sampah..Allahu...dorang tak tahu apa yang kau lalui...senang je nak menilai kan. Anyway thank you for all the insults and being abusive.

9) Have u ever cried on the pavement...beside the road while walking..inside the lrt....huh I advise you not to do such thing, dah lalui...tgh kerja pun nangis? but kadang tak nak pun....sebak x tertahan...sbb apa? ko simpan sorang2..tak ad sape faham kau...tak ad sapa yang care enough to lend their shoulder or care to listen. anyways it is a life lesson. nothing to be ashamed of. biar lah org nak kata apa...kalau boleh jgn la weh...lulz

10)how I react to such situation or people you know...
-silent
-look them in the eyes
-swallow all those painful moment
-wish it was just a nightmares
-shut my mouth all the way until they stop
-just stand still
-if you cannot stand it...walk away
-no need for revenge ataupun nak berbalah bagai. keep it clean.

thats all for now...sakit kepala ak tak hilang lagi..never ending serabut! if someone reading this entry..can you do me a favour?

*please make a du'a for me :(